A weekend trip to Milan

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One of my very first blog posts was my trip to Milan and Como in 2016. Now – two years later – I went back and I had the best time!

When I moved to London I lived in an Airbnb for the first few weeks. I shared it with three Italian guys. One night we had some pizza and one of them showed me some Italian music. Being a huge fan of Chiara Ferragni I had already heard of Fedez, however, I had not really listened to his music. I told a friend, who I met in Milan last time, about it and he mentioned that Fedez and  J-ax would be playing a show in San Siro. My friend and I decided to go there, so I booked my flight and planned my trip.

The concert was on a Friday and since Francesco, my Italian friend, worked I decided to “explore” the city by myself. I still remembered some places from my last trip and even though I’ve been there before, the Duomo was my first stop. I bought some icecream and just enjoyed the sun, while probably looking like a real tourist.

In the evening I went to San Siro to meet up with Francesco and to watch the concert. Even though I only understand a bit of Italian, I still had a great time.

The following day we went to Lake Como, but I will write a seperate post about that.

On Sunday we rented bikes and cycled into the city centre. We had aperitivo at the Aperol terrace, which hands down has the best view! After starting the day with a drink we had napolitan pizza for lunch. I love food, but I love nothing as much as I love some good napolitan pizza.

We walked through Moscova and Porta Nuova, had some gelato at the cutest ice cream store I’ve ever seen and then took the metro to CityLife.  The weather was so so nice and I tried (hard) to get a bit of a tan.

Sadly my flight back was on Monday night already (since I work Tue-Sat). I had some more gelato, some more pizza and some sushi (super Italian, I know), went to Garibaldi, had some coffee and bought some gifts for my colleagues and flatmates and headed to the airport.

Those of you who read my blog since the beginning might remember that the last time I was in Milan my flight home got cancelled and I arrived 8 hours late. This time it was delayed by two hours and when I arrived in Heathrow the tube, coaches and trains weren’t running anymore. So I had to get a cab home. Turns out I’ll have to live on bread and water for the rest of the month ( or at least until British Airways pays me back the cab costs lol).

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Spring in Primrose Hill

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Spring has finally arrived (and so have my Asos orders). We had quite a few warm days here in the past month and last Sunday I finally got to wear one of my new summer dresses. So me and my friend Alexa went on a walk around Primrose Hill.

Primrose Hill is a cute, little area near Camden, with lots of beautiful houses, nice cafés and great restaurants. It’s a big crowded on weekends as everybody tries to grab a coffee or beer while sitting in the sun.

We walked around, took some pictures and even got stopped by some paparazzi who were hunting for some (real) celebs. London is always good for surprises, let me tell you that.

Before we went home we had coffee at “Cowshed” which is also a Spa, I will definitely book a beauty treatment there at some point.

 

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Suffering from depression: My story

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This post is something that I wanted to do for a long time, yet I was and I still am really afraid to talk about it.

Those of you who view my Instagram stories already know that I am dealing with depression and anxiety. I have suffered from them for a while now and I have had a really hard time in the past months. Now living in a new country and working my first full-time job, I have to say that I am more than proud of myself for getting my life back on track. I wish I could say that I never gave myself up but that just isn’t the truth. There were times when I wanted to quit everything. I didn’t see the point of carrying on. Everything seemed hopeless.

I know that depression is different for everyone and that it must be really hard for people who don’t suffer from it to understand what you’re going through. For me it is as if there is always someone following me, telling me that I just shouldn’t  trust people, that I am not good enough and that everything that goes wrong is my fault.

I had really bad experiences in the past. Things happened and I never talked about them. I kept silent for years. Being blamed by others made me blame myself. Yes, I have been abused – both sexually and physically. And yes, the abusers were people I knew and trusted. In the end, they blamed me. Because I didn’t do anything about it. Because I had it coming. I thought about it a lot, about what caused people to do those things to me. I just couldn’t find a reason. But because they had told me that it was my own fault I started to believe it. And instead of feeling anger I felt guilt and shame.

Years went by and I never talked about it. I tried to forget what had happened and I learned to live with the guilt that I felt.

It was really hard for me to trust people. I pushed people who were kind away from me because I was scared to get hurt again. When I entered my last relationship I felt relieved. I trusted him. But months went by and I found out about some things that made me doubt him. But instead of telling me the truth he continued to keep secrets. I did everything I could to find out the truth, knowing that it would hurt me. When I did I got blamed for finding out and I took the blame. Over and over again.

Both my mental and my physical health got really bad and I tried to hide it. Because I blamed myself for the things that had happened. I always felt that I wasn’t enough, no matter how hard I tried. Until I couldn’t take it anymore. I suffered from panic attacks, anxiety and depression. I tried to hide from the truth. I tried to hide from my feelings. On Thanksgiving, I ended up in the hospital. I guess it was because part of me finally accepted the truth and another part of me couldn’t deal with it. When I got out of the hospital I went to Brazil – my safe place –  where I had made so many happy memories in the past. I went there still hoping everything would turn out right and I came back to find my whole life falling apart. Without a home, a job or a relationship I was forced to regain my strength and figure out a plan B.

I spent Christmas time alone in a place that suddenly didn’t feel like home anymore. I was told that I wasn’t welcome anymore.

I started to apply for jobs in London. A city that somehow always felt like home-away-from-home to me.

On January 3rd I had an appointment with my therapist and she advised me to go to a local clinic. This made me panic, I was really afraid. Of the therapy, the people there and of what others would think about me. I told her that I would come back with a decision the following day.

And I did. I spend the following 9 days in a “crisis” ward of the hospital. It was the right decision for me. I didn’t have to worry about my “outside” environment. I learned how to calm myself down, to accept that not everyone shares my morals and ethics. I met people who made me realise that a mental illness does not mean that you are insane or crazy. It is something completely normal. Something we should talk openly about. Something that can effect everyone.

A week later I went to London because I got offered a job. I did not know what to expect, but I knew that it wouldn’t be easy. Luckily I found a room, my work is awesome and I love the city.

I still have to deal with panic attacks, I still feel lonely and I still suffer from the things that happened in the past. But I am getting better. I am getting stronger.

[ If you know anyone who suffers from a mental illness such as depression, please offer them your help but don’t force them to do something. Don’t say “other people have it way worse” don’t put any more pressure on them. Just be there for them. ]

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Welcome to London

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I’m sorry for not being active in the last weeks. As you might know, I left Berlin for good and moved to London. Something that’s always been a dream of mine.

  • December 22nd: I sent out my job application
  • January 19th: Got accepted for the job
  • January 21st: Flew to London
  • January 21st: Viewed an apartment
  • January 24th: Signed my apartment contract
  • January 25th: First day at work
  • February 5th: Moved into the apartment

It all went by pretty fast and I was super lucky that everything turned out the way it did. It is really hard to find a landlord who allows you to bring a pet. Luckily my landlord was really understanding and allowed me to take my dog with me.

Which is also super complicated! You can’t fly to the UK with a pet and you can’t take the Eurostar. The only way to bring your pet to the UK is by car. Which brings me to my next problem. I am 23 and I have a German driving license. However, most car rental companies want you to be 25+ years or expect you to pay a huge amount of money.

But don’t worry – Lumos is coming here by the end of the month.

I will definitely be more active now. I will provide you guys with the whole “Welcome to London” package including:

  • An apartment tour
  • Things I wish I knew before moving here
  • My favourite places in London
  • What and where to eat in London
  • How to bring your dog to the UK

 

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My New Year’s Resolutions | 2018

New Years resolutions 2018

I know it’s really cliché to have resolutions and most people don’t keep up with them, but I never had any. So this year I made a New Year’s Resolutions list for the first time ever. I thought about what I need and want to change and I came up with a view things that I think are worth sharing.

 

Things I want to change about myself:

  • I want to take better care of my body. In 2017 I hardly worked out, I’m naturally really skinny so I never had the pressure to work out. But this year I want to do boxing again, just because I have so much energy and I don’t wanna waste it.

 

  • The past few months my body definitely told me to change some things. My mental health is my number one priority now. I suffered from so many panic attacks that I ended up in the hospital a couple of months ago. NEVER ignore the signs your body and mind give you. If you have to take a break – DO IT! Your mental health is more important than everything else.

 

  • Be kinder. Actually, I already decided on this one mid-2017, there is so much hate in our world already, that I don’t wanna spread any more. Cutting hate out of your life will make you much happier. Practise forgiveness and kindness and good things will follow. If you can choose between love and hate, always choose love.

 

  • Don’t give up on yourself. If you do something that you like, hang in there! The feeling when you finish it is just the best.

 

  • I want to care less about what other people think of me. In the past, this was one of my biggest problems. I got up every morning and the first thing I did was look at my body in the mirror. I owned so many clothes that I never wore, just because I was so insecure. So many times I didn’t do something because I was told: “men don’t like it”. I went to parties just to impress people. In 2018 I will do things because I like them, I will wear certain clothes because I think I look great in them. It’s my life and in the end what matters is that I was happy and not how other people thought of me.

 

Places I want to visit:

  • Iceland ( I would have gone there this winter, but many things changed and I wasn’t able to go.)
  • Tokyo
  • New York or Boston
  • Amsterdam
  • Paris ( I want to visit Paris once a year)

 

Things I want to learn:

  • French
  • I want to improve my photography
  • I want to improve my handwriting

 

Bad habits I want to break:

  • Touching my hair so much
  • Interrupting people
  • Skipping meals

 

Clothes I want to wear more:

  • Heels (yes, I know I’m 6’0″)
  • Skirts

 

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My favorite hairstyles in 2017

My favorite hairstyles 2017

I wore my hair in so many different styles this year. My braiding skills improved a lot since I received my package from Barefoot Blonde Hair. So here are my favorite hairstyles in 2017.

 

Messy braid

1. The Thick Side Braid

This one is probably the easiest one. Put in your extensions (I used 1x four clips, 2x three clips and 1x two clips). Once they’re all in start braiding a normal three strand braid but pause to pull it apart. This will give it some extra chunkiness.

Two fishtail braids

2. The halfway fishtail

This is one of my favorites. If you know how to do a fishtail braid then this one is super easy! I used the three clips and the two clips for this one. Separate your hair in the middle and braid two equally big fishtail braids. Stop halfway down and secure them with an elastic. Just curl the ends et voilà you’re done.

Two long Fishtail braids

3. Two fishtails

Yes, it’s pretty boring, I know, but this is super quick and perfect for windy days. Just repeat the steps on number 2, but braid almost all the way to the end. Secure and pull out some strands from the front. That’s it!

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4. The velvet bow

If you like it a bit more festive then this one’s for you! I used the 4 clips and the 3 clips for the bottom part and the 2 clips for the top part. Clip in your bottom clips and then lift the top part and secure the 2 clips. Tie the top part with an elastic and curl all the hair. I used a straightener for my curls. Tie a velvet, satin or whatever bow around the top part and secure it with a bobby pin on the back side. I got my velvet bow from a craft store. This gives you the perfect classy look.

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5. The pigtails

Classic pigtails are always an option. They’re perfect for bad hair days and super quick to make. For these, I used one 4 clips and the 3 clips. I ALWAYS pull out the front pieces just because I feel that it gives the look a little something.

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A Christmas Day Walk

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It’s boxing day. How fast this year went by, right? Sadly we didn’t have any snow in Berlin this Christmas.

This Christmas my mother visited me in Berlin and I spent a couple of days with her. It’s sort of a Christmas tradition in my family to go for a walk on Christmas Eve. My hometown is close to the sea, so normally we take our walk there.

We chose to go to Mitte and grab a coffee there. I was really hoping to have at least one day of snow this December, but sadly there wasn’t any this year. Growing up in Germany I am used to having snow at least once a year. Maybe I’ll have more luck on my birthday (which is next month btw).

I hope all of you had happy holidays!

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  • Boots: Hunter Boots
  • Coat: Zara (last season)
  • Sweater: Zara (probably not available anymore)

Summer day at Barigui Park

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On Monday I went to Brazil. I was an exchange student in Curitiba in 2012 and I kind of left half of my heart here. The people, the food, the nature – everything is just so nice.

I’ll be in Brazil for a total of 16 days, two weeks here in Curitiba and then 2 days in Rio. This is my second time coming “home” after my exchange year, the last time I was here was in December/January of 2014/15. Back then I celebrated Christmas with my host family here in Curitiba and NYE in Rio with friends.

I had a pretty hard time the last few months, so I decided to go back to my “happy place”.

One of my favorite places in Curitiba is the “Parque Barigui” – the cities most famous park. It was one of the first places I visited here and I fell in love with it. People go there to walk their dogs, run, relax or have picnic.

My (host) sister and I went there with our dog Smartie, we walked around the lake and had coconut water.

Stay tuned for more posts about Brazil

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  • Hair: Barefootblondehair

Christmas Gift Guide for Girls & Guys

Christmas is only a month away and I’m sure some of you still have no idea what to buy for your family, friends or significant other.

It can be really hard to find the perfect present for them. You want the best for them, but you don’t want to go over the top. But that doesn’t mean that you want to buy something cheap and useless, right? I made a list of 20 gift ideas for guys and girls, which I chose with the help of my boyfriend, to make sure it’s something guys actually like. Some are a bit more expensive than others but I’m sure you’ll get some inspiration from it.

Christmas gift guide for guys

1 Lumix Digital Camera,   335€

Who said having a nice camera is only for girls? Challenge his creativity with this small, light and super versatile camera.

2 Thug Kitchen Cookbook, 14€

The title says it all. This isn’t your standard, fancy cookbook. It’s a “real life” coobook, with recipes that don’t require 10+ expensive ingredients.

3 Burberry Wallet, 295€

In my opinion a good wallet is key. I gave my boyfriend a similar one for his birthday earlier this year.

4 Monogrammed Phone Case, 50€

I’m all about monograms, I just love that it’s so personal.

5 Barbour Belt, 60€

Every man needs a simple belt. This one is subtle, yet still chic.

6 Sneaker Cleaning Kit, 21€

“Don’t step on my shoes!” 

7 YSL Fragrance, 48€

One of my all time favorite fragrances for men.

8 Sony Noise Cancelling Headphones, 300€

The perfect headphones for crowded subways and long flights.

Christmas Gift guide for girls

1 Coach Cosmetic Bag, 75€

Every girl needs a small cosmetic bag which fits in every bag.

2 Hunter Rainboots, 160€

A good pair of rainboots is never a bad idea. Especially if you have a dog.

3 Kusmi Tea, 26€

You’re either a tea or a coffee person. I’m a tea person and Kusmi is one of my favorite brands. Perfect for cozy days inside.

4 Scented Candle Set, 82€

Grab a cup of tea and a blanket and light up some scented candles.

5 Victoria’s Secret Pyjamas, 60€

Nothing better than a cute pair of pyjamas, am I right?

6 Kate Spade Bracelet, 75€

I’m not a jewelry person, but you can’t go wrong with a simple, classy bracelet.

7 Bikini, 138€

Because a bikini brings you summer feeling in winter.

8 Chrissy Teigen Cookbook, 19€

Chrissy Teigen is one of my all time favorites, and so is food.

9 Burberry Eyeshadow Palette, 56€

I love subtle make up. This palette is hands down the best palette I’ve ever had.

10 Patagonia Teddy Jacket, 140€

In my opinion Patagonia has the best outdoor clothing, plus I’m absolutely obsessed with the whole teddy look.

11 Portable Printer, 125€

The perfect party accessoire, take a picture, print it, frame it.

12 Victoria’s Secret Bombshell Fragrance, 60€

Ever since I first entered a VS store I’ve been in love with the “bombshell” smell.

 

I hope I gave you a little inspiration. Happy christmas shopping!

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Inside a coffee roastery

Inside a coffee roastery

If you live in Berlin or if you’re into good coffee, you’ve probably stumbled over THE BARN at least once. The first time I did, was when I was picking a friend up, to drive her to the airport, but we decided to get coffee first. Even though we just got a to-go coffee I still really liked the place. The next time I was at their coffee shop, the one in Auguststraße that is, I asked Danny to take a picture of me while I was sitting in the window. If you follow me on Instagram you’ve probably seen the picture, if you didn’t – and you really should – here it is:

sitting in window at THE BARN in Berlin

Shortly after I posted the picture I got an email from Flo, who works for THE BARN. He asked me if I would like to do a collaboration with them, we met a couple days later and he told me some things about their brand, their coffee and their concept.

When I work with brands, it’s really important for me to be honest with you guys. I would never promote something that I don’t use or don’t like.

That’s also what I told Flo, I told him “I love your coffee shops, but I have to be honest, I don’t know much about coffee and I don’t drink it on a daily basis. For me it’s something special, that I only drink at coffee shops, it’s something I enjoy.” Lucky for me he didn’t mind and we decided that it was a good idea for him to show me their roastery and teach me a thing or two about coffee.

A couple of weeks later Danny and I went to their main store, which is also their roastery. Flo offered us a cup of coffee and told us about the kind of beans that were used for it.

As I mentioned before, neither I nor Danny are coffee experts, and they were prepared for that. Turns out they have little cards with information about every roast already prepared. The cards feature information about the country of origin, the flavour, the harvest and the producer. One thing I especially liked was that they had a comparison for the taste. The taste of the coffee we had could be compared to the taste of grapes or nut pralines. For someone like us, who don’t know much about coffee, this is a great help. Especially if you buy it for someone else and you don’t know what kind of coffee they like. But if you know whether they prefer a fruity or a creamy taste, you have better chances of picking the right choice.

Details at THE BARN in Berlin

He told us that he and his co-workers visited the farms that they work with. Which is something that I think you’re kind of obligated to do if you produce outside of Europe. THE BARN works with many smaller farms around the world, which I think is great, because the quality is better and it also helps those farms.

roasting coffee beans at THE BARN in Berlin

Coffee roastery in Berlin

We got introduced to their headroaster and he showed us their roastery. Maybe you’ve seen a roasting machine (pictured below) somewhere before. Danny and I did, but we were completely wrong about how it works. We thought the beans are being roasted in the big “carousel” on the bottom. WRONG. They are being roasted inside the big drum. The “carousel” is only used to cool them down afterwards. You can see the colour of the beans before roasting in the little window. The beans on the bottom are already roasted and have the typical “coffee” colour.

Roasting coffee beans at THE BARN in Berlin

Coffee beans being roasted

After they are cooled down they are transferred to the packaging area. The beans are filled into paper bags and are sealed. The whole process is made by hand, which I think is so cool in a time where you have machines for literally anything.

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We were told that the company ships beans to countries all over the world. To our surprise, Kuwait was one of the best costumers. Apparently, the people there drink a lot of espressos.

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One thing I love about coffee is that there are just so many ways to drink it. No matter if you’re an  Espresso-, Americano-, or Latte-Macchiato-person, you will find the right cup of coffee here.

I ALWAYS drink Latte Macchiato, I’m more of a softie and I like it a bit more creamy.

Danny, on the other hand, likes to drink cappuccino or hand brew the best.

If you’re a “beginner” and you don’t know what is what, just ask. The guys and girls who work for the barn know their business and will surely help you to find the perfect drink for you.

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If you visit their stores you have to try out the carrot cake. It’s hands down one of the best carrot cakes I’ve ever eaten, and believe me, I ate a lot of carrot cake in my life. Flo told us that the recipe for the cake is originally from the owner’s mother, isn’t that cool? I wish my mum could make that great carrot cake (sorry mum).

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We really loved this “look behind the scenes”. I will definitely enjoy my next coffee there, even more, knowing how much work and love they put in the process of making it.

And who knows, maybe one day I’ll be a coffee expert.

 

Website: https://thebarn.de

Coffee shops:

  • THE BARN at Café Kranzler  | Kurfürstendamm 18, 10719 Berlin, Germany
  • THE BARN Roastery | Schönhauser Allee 8, 10119 Berlin
  • THE BARN Café | Auguststrasse 58, 10119 Berlin

 

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